Thursday, February 26, 2009
4:53 AM
a week or so ago,someone close talked to me on msn.the person asked if i could make her laugh.she was feeling down.and i found that i couldnt.all i could do was offer a feeble attempt,to ask her to watch some videos that werent even half funny.i realised, i was very useless.no, this isnt an emo post. this is just a reflection.i want to be able.from now on,i am not humorous until i can make a person smile on their darkest day.i am not a friend until i can be there whenever someone needs me.i am not reliable until my word is truly my bond.i am not strong unless i can stand up for others./beginning.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
6:16 AM
i was writing about a rant yesterday night that took two hours.
but i decided not to publish it.
because it's so long and full of my bullshit. hahaha.
so in summary :
the day before, my hair got cut.
at the school barber.
i think it's stupid that my fringe got caught, then my acceptable sideburn, sides and back were shaved.
it looks really moronic.
mr yoong was going all "must cut shorter ah" when it didnt need to be done at all.
except for my fringe, that is.
so now my hair conforms to the ridiculous looking 2 by 4 school required haircut.
looks like shit.
then mdm mini d/o sathiya gave me hell.
basically pesdy and i talked in class, she exploded, threatened to call my mom, gave me truckloads of shit.
i tried being respectful to her.
well she cant make up her mind. first she tells me to look at her.
then she says im staring her down.
so i look away. then she tells me to look at her.
then she says im being rude again.
wonderful ehh.
and mdm tang keeps popping in really "helpful" and "funny" quips such as "this one ah, sure must call mother one"
and "cannot be just talking one lah!"
sorry to disappoint, but it is.
so at the end of the whole thing, i acted like a dog, and made mdm sathiya feel powerful.
at least that's what she's showing me.
mentioning that she's the english head, and has to power to call my parents at any instant.
wow! that's scary!
"i can KILL them both right now" <-- mdm mini.
for talking. that's a whole lot of tolerance right there.
and respect for students too. making sarcastic comments and mocking them.
while i act like a dog.
yeah, respect goes a long way.
let me explain the situation.
first lesson of the year, she explodes at me jiaren pesdy.
and some others. while she's verbally flipping the finger at the others, she isnt scolding me.
so i keep a little smile on my face.
now to some of you that's pretty irritating. well if it were a huge grin it would be.
a smile is my face. it's not a look. it's my face.
as much as the eyebags are a part of mdm mini's face, the smile is part of my face.
she thinks it's a cocky smile. fine, i drop it.
then she keeps giving me flaming bullshit.
i do not like arrogant, self-righteous teachers who think they deserve respect just because they,
they what, had NIE training?
that's ludicrous and delusional.
they're very much bullies. wonderful, excellent role models to developing students all around Singapore. and they question why we behave in the way we do?
time to stop pointing fingers at parents and look at yourselves in the mirrors.
and what's even more humiliating, we're paying them.
respect and trust is earned. always respect fellow people. isnt that what they always tell us?
seems like "practicing what you preach" dont apply to them, ehh.
*disclaimer : i am not referring to anyone in particular. you can set yourself on fire if you think its you i'm talking about, those are your thoughts, your perspective, not my problem.i was incredibly pissed by mdm mini sathiya's attitude towards me.
that's my sentiment.
and i am unhappy.
and that's the summary. imagine the whole thing! LOL.
i'm fucking pissed.
this is stupid.
Monday, February 16, 2009
2:46 AM
i just created a facebook.
i feel very noob for creating one so late.
it's like. LOL.
nevermind.
anyway, what's up with giving friends presents on valentine's day?
people are going to say i'm being jealous.
i'm not, alright.
i just find it funny and weird that people are giving presents to friends on a day dedicated to lovers.
doesnt it make the whole point of valentine's pointless?
well that's just my opinion, i guess.
nothing much happened today.
rebekah charmaine pesdy came over for proj.
ahhhh. class outing? i dont know.
hmm sentosa isnt too bad!
but i dont want a farmer's tan again....
awww.
adding people on facebook is troublesome and tough.
i shall go rack up some points on word challenge now.
lalala, bai bai.
P.S. i'm working on a disclaimer to protect myself from teacher attacks!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
5:12 AM
ahhhhhh!
it's been long since i've updated.
lol zhiming,
ahem. charmaine joshua pesdy rebekah zhiming came over today.
charmaine pearly and rebekah were here to do lit proj.
zhiming and joshua came to, uhh, play only.
hahah. had fun.
especially the eating part. *glomps*
did some of the literature, i think.
then i took a knife and scared my brother's friends. who were also here.
it's really short. just, like, 20secs.
if i'm able to upload it, it should be somewhere down there.
i did my maths retest.
it was alright. i think i can pass.
tommorow i'm going to run with zhiming again, and pearly maybe.
my legs still ache from wednesday's run. damn short only la.
lol supernoob!
waiting for the class blog questions.
aw heck, i'll just post first.
MRAWR!
oh the video isnt here. LOL.
anw i dont like mrs sng. she gave me an attitude face.
i was asking a serious question. srsly pis'd.
hroar.
updated links...half updated.
i'm beat.
tomorrow ba. goodbaiiiiiii.
Monday, February 2, 2009
7:26 AM
post number one hundred.been one year or so, since this blog was created. i've changed.looking back on all those posts. lol i feel dumb?the very first post. looked act cute to me.hahahaha. they bring back good memories.like the ECP outing. like, second blog post. STOCKBROKER!i feel like i've matured. i'm still as stupid as ever. but a different kind of stupid from then.i liked 2e5 at the beginning. over time, i hated it. still do, actually. mrawr.and all those little mushy mushy snippets at the end of my posts.hahahahahaha.dont really want to dwell on those childish things any longer.learnt how to value my friends' words. they always told me.but i just never listened.and then, the poems. did i think it was fun to do so?i get goosebumps when i read my old poems now. hahaha.they're like. so slobbery. some. most.havent got any better, too.i realised who really meant the most to me.i understood the love between friends i never saw before.i changed.from writing to speech, from walking to...........hair.LOL. hahahaha.i miss my mushroom head. i think i'll regrow it someday.bridges were broken and new ones were forged.some good friends drifted away.i wonder how we fell apart, i really do. honestly, i miss you.got " " THIS much closer to better grades.i have alot of verbal bullshit. all talk no action.hopefully i can change that.after so long. i guess i've changed. not exactly the same person anymore.i'll remember you, those who just stood by.and i'll never forget you, those who stood by me.thank you.<62.fcousin.ma and pa, brotherW466.and other assorted sweets. :D