Wednesday, April 30, 2008
9:00 AM
so I throw my life upon all that You are,
'cause I know You gave it all for me.and when all else fades,my soul will dancewith You,Where the love lasts forever.Labels: i surrender.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
7:28 AM
this sucks. i want to be free. free from my own mind.im being eaten up by my doubts.it's scary.worse of all. i think it's true.but i cant trust my own mind anymore.what to think?help.within the confines of my mind.Labels: heixindui. BHP.
12:21 AM
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.im supposed to be studying now.oh well, taking 15 minutes off to blog isnt too bad.30 hours for study hours this week. so much!nvm. exams gonna be over in another one week+'s time. shall try and do my best for this one. i hope i can fulfill my targets.hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.nothing special to post about.hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.well. everyone do their best for MYEs. we only got two (or less) exams per year, just put in your all for these two, CAs slack also nvm one. and this year streaming. so jiayou ba.i think i shall take literature. not sure though. depends, but probably.hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.sian. goodbye peoples.this-frustration-is-eating-me-up.
whoa. super bright.Labels: i'm gonna crash and burn.
Friday, April 25, 2008
9:28 PM
another wonderful saturday.haha, havent been posting for a long time...go home from school, mug all the way.actually no. monday i came home and slept all the way. tuesday i went for guitar. wednesday mugged. thursday met ziying :D, studied awhile, then met zihui and thomas :D.friday go home mug two hours. then go cellgroup. after cellgroup, 1 hour more.total study hours = 13.breakthrough, i've never studied that much before...be right back, sneeze.that's better. haha, i got nothing much to talk about. last week, i was walking back home from service at ard 11+.The cold wind blew in my face. My eyelids weighed a thousand pounds. I wanted, I needed sleep. The Mid-Year Examinations were coming. And the cellgroup had a 20-hour-study-hours rule. I had forgotten to study for the week. and now, i had 9 more hours to complete in ONE day, even after studying thru the night on friday, and throughout the day on saturday. I didn't like studying. I don't study. But I wouldn't be able to go for cellgroup if I didn't. So i did.The wind grew stronger. What were exams to me? I didn't have to care, never did. What difference does this one make? Yeah yeah, streaming, who cares.I don't want to let my parents down yet again. They've been so supportive of me. Since the cellgroup has already provided me with the challenge to study, I will study. As much as possible.The trees above me rustled. and a single leaf drifted thru the air. It fell to the ground in front of me.I stopped.I won't be letting anyone down - not my parents, not myself, not the cellgroup. I'm going to do the best I can, and better.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"I think you shouldn't go cellgroup or service lah. stay home and study or something."
- Joshua, on friday if i'm not wrong.well, if you think you can make the best out of the weekends by studying, go ahead, and jiayou!but i believe. With God.Labels: I can do exceedingly and abundantly.
Friday, April 18, 2008
12:26 AM
Anyone remember this?
Have you even been in love?
Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.They don't ask for it.They do something dumb one day like hold your hand, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends", "Go away" or even ignoring you turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
4:32 AM
bwaaaaaaaaa. got not much to post about today.My mom bought the I HEART REVOULUTION cd. By Hillsong United.So cool. while going for dentist, was listening to it. gets me so excited! :Dsupposedly all the nice songs are compiled inside, as in, from what im hearing from the cd.Shoot, i totally forgot what i was going to post!erm okay. erm okay okay. erm okay okay okay. ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.nevermind. shall expand on why i was angry at lynette. cause she doesnt understand why i got so worked up over her calling shihan and eugene genius.thats a very smart question to ask !let's reflect. you say we sent up two of our class geniuses. i dont agree.you kp me. say why not i go up volunteer.i say im not the volunteering type.*sarcastic comment*, you say they're forced to go up, why not i volunteer.told you, im not the volunteering type, and no one asked me. told you to stop repeating stuff already proven wrong.you say whatever. act ignorant about your last tag.i point it out.you act ignorant.how am i not supposed to be pissed off? i dont think they're geniuses, have to be kp-ed ah?you want me to prove how much they're NOT smart?please la, they're just stuck up people. think can.but it's all over. so. no more le!!!in the past.GERALDINE. IM NOT A TYRANT. RAWWWWWWWWWWWWWR. BWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.and sweekun. i never told you to tell him, so if you didnt, it's not my problem anymore. what have been done can be undone, but i dont want to delve into philosophy.in conclusion, your actions set in motion the actions that i made to spite you.so it's really your fault. =PGOODBYE PEOPLE!Labels: 'cause i love you.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
5:25 AM
GIVEN UP.my latest rock obsession. GO LINKIN PARK.it's liek supernice. go listen to it!Tell Me Why - Declan Galbraith.
my latest object of ridicule. Ms Sinyee Nanako intro-ed the song to me.try watching it on youtube. look at the kid sing those words he doesn't understand, and look at him telling us to do stuff he can do better with all that money he has.hoooo, gabriel says im very different in my blog and in real life. like im very "civilised" in real life. am i really? hahah.and yes, sweekun and jonathan. i apparently am quite. LOL.SUPER BUYAOLIAN.anw, nothing much happened over the past few days. friday had cg at zihui and ziying's house. quite fun. and i'm changing bags with gabriel next week! wahahaha.hmm, i wonder how it feels like to carry his bag. frankly i think it looks kinda squarish. hahah.
the only day worth blogging about is liek saturday:
Woke up at 12.30. rushed to prepare stuff, but ITE barry cancelled bible study, so i kinda slacked. then went to shower. dozed off inside LOL.i'm such a pig. then woke up, finished, went to JP.to 7-11! Look for my three lost books. Ziying and barry were alr at the control station, so i didnt really look. just asked the counter staff if they had three books. they say donthave, i rushed off. little did i know...met the two people! sorry to make you wait. then we went for service.then at around 6 i left church and went to jurong east.sorry, couldnt join you guys for fellowship.met pris, emilie, and tsingmin at jurong east.went band concert. sat there and watched. no comments. hahah.the blind, handicapped and DEAF. xDthen went home. along the way, saw yunrui and zihui on the mrt! haha, so coincidental. to tell the truth, i was looking for cg people la, in case they were going home after fellowship. who knew!went 7-11 again. found out that the books were at the SAME SPOT.i hate the 7-11 crew.two important things happened on saturday.1. I almost lost my earphones.2. I lost my earphones.and i heard they were quite ex. crap. i've been too forgetful these days.end of story! goodnight peoples.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
8:09 AM
long time no post le. hur, im here to rant. tommorow then post about events.I'm sick and tired of people not being able to make SENSIBLE ARGUMENTS.like, seriously, what the heck?please, when you talk, insult, or argue with someone, at least be able to constantly use that ground. dont go like "ohh you loser you stoop the the person's level by insulting them". then what are you? even worse? you just insulted yourself for God's sake. =.=and never ever contradict yourself, unless you have an almost flawless excuse! the worst you can do is to say something and attack yourself a few sentences later. that's one of the best ways to commit suicide.and KEEP IN MIND YOUR TOPIC. dont wander off into some lame shit crap like insulting the person's spelling or grammar. yours isnt perfect either, you're just going to get owned.seriously what the hell, im seeing the same pathetic symptoms being repeated again and again all over tagboards, blogs, etc.people, if you want to rant, make sure others cant use your own words against yourself, because that's when you'll lose.......this is a completely useless post. some rant. hahah.and anw, ms lynette chang, shihan and eugene are, contrary to retarded belief, NOT geniuses. i dont give a damn if those two feel insulted by reality, but they're not. and you back off. when i say something and mean it, you better take it seriously. i dont screw up when i say a diplomatically perfect sentence. because i make sure that i'm right. so again, shihan and eugene are not geniuses. don't agree? think they are? make me change my thinking. try.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
11:45 PM
ahh, i havent been posting too often. i feel guilty. esp when i want to maintain this blog.I've been posting around once a week *only*, which is bad, i think. many many things have been happening, so not being able to type them out is bad.but nevermind, i shall start with...
yesterday.
even at the start of school, my muscles ached like
crap. they should have more common sense than to put the 2.4 run one day
before the actual NAPFA test. it's crazy la. make us get worse results D:
and anw during the 2.4 run, i ran all the way until last round, then got difficulty breathing, so had to
stop and rest. sian.
anyway!
bored through the whole day,
then after school i got pissed cause got napfa. suck man, i'm supposed to go ice-skating with
thomas, chengyun, tianhui and sinyee one la. spoil my day. super gay.
napfa was alright, just that the sport leaders abit funny. sit ups i laughed. then
cannot do till 40. standing board jump i got 208 at first, dunno why
never count. inclined pull ups they
never count 3. haiz, haiz.
results are as follows, (Standing Board Jump : 160) ( Inclined Pull ups : 21) ( Sit Ups : 38) (Sit and Reach : 35) ( Shuttle Run : 10.4 seconds.)
hurray,
shuttle run :D
then after napfa start to rain.
had to stay in class...then
tsingmin cried.
*
heart pain* HAHA.
emilie cried too. Cry Day 2008. D:
lalala, etc. and then everyone wanted to go home when the rain lightened, so went to jurong east to meet cg people. chengyun already went back,
sian from waiting.
Feel
very guilty lor. next time dont wait for me better. they didnt ice-skate also, cause tianhui didnt bring home clothes
if im not wrong.
went home late, around 7.50+, chionged chinese tuition homework
at a playground, then ran to my teacher's house and gave the homework to her.
home sweet home, studied for
history, then slept.
bwaaaa, shall
try to post more often. >_>
goodbye people!